Now this may sound a bit dark but ever wonder why we do the things we do, why we go and try to achieve higher if we aren't taking any of this with us when we die.
When we die we aren't going to take with our high school or college degree. We aren't taking our riches with us. (At least not for real for those that want to be buried with it)
So why do we continue. We do we pressure ourselves so much for nothing really. I know some do it for their families and their future or what not. But other than that, I don't see much reason to. At least not at my age.
I do hope to have a family of my own one day but I don't see how being in school now helps me if worst comes to worst and I die tomorrow. My hours of classes aren't going to do me any good then. I could've been spending my time enjoying things I love to do. Like playing tourist in the city, being silly with my brothers, enjoying a beautiful day out with my mom, watching a game at Wrigley, cake fight with HDM. Those are just a few things I enjoy doing and wish I could do them daily because I fear the day it comes that my time here is over and I hate myself for not doing them enough.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying this because I feel like I'm wasting time in school. I love school. I love the stories we read, the discussions we have in the class. I love the whole learning experience.
I just wish I know that I'm not wasting my time there. That I do eventually became the fun English teacher that I hope I one day get to be. I just don't want my life to end so early because then I wouldn't have as much memories as I want to have.
They say, "if you don't have something to smile about when your old, you didn't live right". I don't want that to be me. I have a few things to smile about already, but I'm not fully sure that its enough. I wish I could asks someone if I'm living to the fullest because I'm not sure.
Especially since we're all going to die anyways.
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